Writing down my journey..

Swim Failed

2012-01-31T20:20:00.002+08:00

After a discussion, we felt we are not ready to send the proposal. However, we both agreed with this date onwards, we will be fully committed.

Obtained my PDL today, happy when I walk the talk. Now is whether I am ready to touch the car now, abit hesitation, but a man got to do what he has got to.

Anw, pening down this horrifying experience today.
It was my first swimming competition, and it was horrid. Simply not my day, a competition hosted by the engineer unit gathering the best swimmers in engineer to compete with airforce and navy. Swam 400m freestyle and 200m breaststroke. I came in last for both. Never felt this demoralising, I was told to go to collect points even if I come in last I still do contribute but of cos in competitions, who wants to get the last.

Truly, its hard to be an all rounder. Sometimes, finding myself Jack of All, but Master of none. However, with this experience, I understand myself better - knowing where I stand and I know my strengths and weaknesses. Felt encouraged after sheryl texted me, "Remember, you are table tennis and squash boy", I smiled :)

Fail to plan, Plan to fail.

2012-01-29T23:04:00.003+08:00

I have made plans for the next few months, and its going to be hectic. I have been stalling and stalling, think that there is always a tomorrow and realised I have wasted some of my hyper youth years. Many things awaiting for me to accomplish, its racing against time now!

1. Driving - Plan: 14th April is FTT. while waiting for FTT, get my PDL and start learning practical lessons. Hope to complete 20 lessons, FTT and final test in 3-4 months. Possible days to sacrifice - Weekends morning. Starting after valentines day week.

2. Business Venture Application - Plan: ACE is funding entrepreneurs up to 50k, hence taking this great chance. Have 2 possible ideas to submit for entry, however lack in manpower. Application is from 1 Feb to 16 Mar. Possible days to sacrifice, Mon/Wed meetup with team.

3. Korean lessons - Plan: To take a 10 lessons course on korean language, to obtain a cert. To be done after March or even as late as May. Have a voucher purchased at Cambridge Language School. Possible day to take up: Mon/Wed

4. Building up - Ok how many times u heard this from me, but I will have to do this right once and for all to get a good shape and maintain it. Easy to say right.. I have the attributes, now I need that little voice in me to push me, waking up on early saturdays and sundays to do that. Plan: Sat - Chest, bicep, tricep. Sun - Legs, running and core muscle. Duration: 2 years, giving myself a realistic time to get it correct.

5. To apply for NUS, NTU, SMU in 1 Feb - 21 Feb!

6. Tutoring for 3 kids on every Tues & Thurs

I have a new year resolution, to buy a car before I make the next new year resolution :) Huat ah, hope I succeed, stop talking and do first! Get the momentum running! A draft plan, so lets do this! Its a year to test my passion's stamina.

I am still far to make a goal yet, because I haven't got my basics there yet. I need a driving licence, some savings, some nice body, something to stand out from others with a language and at least securing an entry to local uni, then I start to talk about where is my future but I know I am heading the right way.

Maple Island Pics

2012-01-07T19:44:00.003+08:00

Pictures of me when I was in.... Tekong (Maple Island)

The main character in the pic is my buddy, thats me beside him during a PT. Its the early period of Tekong so I looked fatter

Me on far right - Doing it with a smile :)

Hard to spot this, i was twisting to the camera anw thats why i remembered. 7th from the right

Ready in Action for 1st IPPT.

The fact that I did not pass out from tekong (POP) made me felt left out now. However, I know there is a price for many things. I gain and I lose. But I felt I gained more :)

2012, "21 this year"

2012-01-01T01:22:00.007+08:00

Marching into 2012 with a protocol, "prepare to rise 21 old boy!"

Here comes another new year, 2012.
A new cycle, where people starts spamming on facebook when the clock ticks from 23:59 to the much welcomed new year and coming out with new year resolutions... On the contrary, being so enthusiastic, but how many people actually did achieve them?

We lose focus and sights on our goals easily, due to the pressure and the ever changing society. Then when we ponder and reflect on it, we realised many days have passed but we achieved little. I admit I didnt achieve much this year, my goals listed down for 2011 wasn't where near what I am now.

Coming back from korea back on December 2010, with real enthusiasm and optimism of life. I told myself I want to have a car driving licence, scuba diving licence, get my teeth fixed with braces, slim down and muscle up and many more. Yet I am no where nearby. Its devastating and discouraging.

However, I want to commend myself for a few things I did well and achieved on my personal level in 2011. On the month of May to August 2011, I found confidence and affirmation. I did well in my temporary job as a recruitment consultant where providing open jobs to unemployed people is one of my forte which involved communication, fast decision making and persuasive skills. I always doubt myself in persuading people all along, but now I have gained some self confidence in it.

On the month of March to April, I found appreciation and filal piety. I travelled to Bali and Taiwan where I had 4D and 14D respectively, both were a good lesson and an eye opener. Especially in Taiwan, the incident with a little grandma, which I find her resembling my mum and could picture her into the grandma when she turns older, I cried because its a fact that everyone will grow older and one day with white hair and physically weaker. I realised I have been rude to my mum mostly and that slapped me to cherish before time runs out.

On the month of September, I found Love. It all begins at Redang, when both our eyes caught the meteor flying past. One is a bless, two is a sure signal :) Till now, I like the way how our relationship is going, playing both a boyfriend role and a soul partner role. We both dislike being quiet, thats why we are noisy, even in trains. Playing like best friends and also being like a couple. This is hard to comeby, hence I cherish more what I have now.

I will not speak about my NS life, because I find it meaningless and believe it would arouse anyone's interest.

Life...Ups and Downs, just like a roller coaster. Its how our heart is that makes those down times into better times, and maxmise those up times fully. Whatever it is, I am happy that I got my new laptop. HURRAY!

Getting it ready for the new year. I just bought it on the last day of 2011, and ready to kick ass with this. My previous laptop has crashed and $338 is the price to repair it. So decided to buy it with my just arrived income from giving tuition. I am so happy because its 2GB RAM Graphics and its much faster than my previous com!

I don't really have a new year resolution because we expect ourselves so much and didnt achieve, it becomes disappointment. So I will go along with the flow. But i will disclosed my interest. I have gotten a new interest which is to learn new languages. My 3 languages to target is Korean, Japanese and Spanish. I may not do all 3 in a year. Driving licence seems to be quite essential, so I will complete it as soon as financial and time wise allows. Scuba diving will only come when all the above has achieved. And lastly, will be getting braces provided that financial allows too.

Most importantly, be happy and conscience with my actions and that comes with integrity. Bless me with a happy 2012 with successful university application to NUS!!! 2012, lets go lets go!

How great, now I have to say," I am 21 this year".

Back on track!

2011-12-13T20:21:00.006+08:00

Even its a glimpse of hope, always keep it alive :)

Sometimes when you are somewhere at the lowest point of life and in a crisis, a miracle does happen and that was what has happened to me, time and time again :) Its like I am being blessed for creating miracles for myself. Just like I am equipped with a superpower - to be able to create miracles.

But of course, nothing drops from the sky. I believe firmly more on the positive attitude within me and the never dying attitude that keeps create such "miracles."

As I was complaining on my personal financial crisis where I went down into a serious recession on my previous post and just the next day, a solution came to me. Now I am a private tutor for 2 secondary 1 students and a primary 2 student, which means I will not be struggling so much on my financial issue now, or maybe not anymore :)

This news was so great to me that my relative with 3 kids is looking for a tutor, hence I decided to do what I do best, teaching and mentoring. I may not be the most experienced but I have the patience and adequate skills which is virtue.

Its the starting period, so I ain't commenting much and hope everything goes fine. However, I am feeling very fresh now where I can feel my life is full of happenings, a very passionate attitude to learn something new like languages and music. As well as joining a competitive club for table tennis, coming back to how I want it to be or it has been :)

Thanks Sweetheart, for pulling through this with me when I need support morally and spiritually. That 'push' was important! And thanks for putting on that cutie smile, seeing you smile always melts my heart! :)

Now I have got the right footing on the direction of my life, I wish for a better tomorrow everyday. I shall be off to start planning the usage of my time! God bless :)

Remember, Keep hope alive :)

Need to buck up!

2011-12-05T20:45:00.001+08:00

Things are going badly, downturn of family issue.
Struggle for financial issue is hurting relationships.
Debts here and there. Even 3 meals is a problem.
Just want to get over this unlucky year
and wish for a better smooth year ahead.

Never worry for money like this before, used to be able to control my financial pretty well. If I am low in cash, I know where to earn it. I got my resources. But now I am so tight up with my commitments that I am obliged to work outside because I am under service. I lost my freedom and also my basic rights(to be able to earn money). Its pushing me to my limit for a bad offer which is to sign on with the air force. But that will be very harsh and unwise.

I need a miracle somewhere, please make it happen.

Summin' Nov 2011 up!

2011-11-30T17:16:00.004+08:00

On the last day of November 2011,
Would like to thank a special someone for making my 20th birthday with the most number of presents of 9. Also, a joyful and memorable month of this year. It goes into record book, thank you sheryl :)

Your effort, your love and your time. I saw it invested in me and appreciate every single one of these presents.
親爱的谢谢你，
爱你不是你的美而以，
而是我们的默契越来越靠近，
你的爱我越来越珍惜，
就这样你的明天我不想缺席。

我很想成为。。。

2011-11-20T12:34:00.002+08:00

我很想成为
一个很厉害的人，
让这个世界
因为有了我
而有一点点的改变
而我的世界就不过是你的心。

A new place after BMTC 2

2011-11-17T19:12:00.006+08:00

I am struggling to draw a balance in my inner peace. Some negative perceptions is disallowing my happy cells to function arghhhh. Many questions are flooding through my mind again. How will I adapt? Will I do well? Did I made the right decision or could I have made a better decision? Will I change for the good or bad with this environment? Argh..Calling cells for a conference meeting!

分享的快乐

2011-11-15T17:28:00.003+08:00

Your post 也说出上我心里的感受 :)
我只想说如果工作有什么事让你烦或其他的事情，你都可以和我分享。因为说出来比闷在心里头较舒服啊！

Yesterday was a good evening with you :)

Once upon those childhood...

2011-11-13T23:13:00.005+08:00

Jenny - Click 5.

Missing times when I was 16-18 where I was having my time at Habbosoup Radio as a DJ. This song was one of the top 20 countdown songs. This song was one of the most played song. This song was very popular among the fans with tons of dedication requested for.

Radio DJ would play the the song and also get a room to chill for listeners to gather at too. I say, Habbosoup was my Youth, my childhood :)

喜欢我们

2011-11-10T09:05:00.002+08:00

我很喜欢我们的关系
一段敢爱敢恨的恋爱
有话会说出来但会好好说
一起勇敢地面对问题
说出来后也比较开心，心情比较舒畅
就因为这样我跟加喜欢你，喜欢我们 :)

"Harry Potter" - Asian Edition

2011-11-09T15:47:00.003+08:00

Being shifted from company office to a corner at the ground staircase. FML. Feeling like harry potter now. Hopefully a big guy appears and rescue us. Just nice, there are 3 of us -_-. I say first, I wanna be Harry.

One's Heart.

2011-11-08T14:28:00.000+08:00

以美好的心，欣赏周边事物；
以真诚的心，对待每一个人；
以负责的心，做好份内的事；
以谦虚的心，检讨自己错误；
以宽阔的心，包容伤害你的人；
以真诚的心，对待所拥有的；
以平常的心，接受已发生的事实；
以放下的心，面对最难的割舍；
以感恩的心，感谢所有的人。

Happy Kid'O

2011-11-08T11:29:00.004+08:00

Revealing my forumla to be a happy kid:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less from people.

Happy mind kick starts a fresher day.
Live everyday with a happier heart :)

Many people around us tend to complain this and that, induce negative thoughts to territorize our happy cells. So produce more happy cells to fight em'! :D

Ups & Downs.

2011-11-08T10:36:00.003+08:00

Tekong Weather: Rain, Cat1 - 31 degrees, 26 degrees.
Office/OOT room - feels like winter (Cold...)

Comparing back to 2010's winter, realised a difference in a year does matter... Back in the year of 2010, situated at the center of korea, Daejeon as a carefree exchange student where I was having what I called... the freedom of my life. Now, Tekong... sigh...

Guess thats life, you have your ups and downs.

Positively, at one of the aspect of life, i am having my "up". Thats how life get balanced off well :)

Surrealism

2011-11-03T22:34:00.003+08:00

Another great composer found with gorgeous music - Yanni.
Came across one of his many famous instrumental music, "Dare to dream" on Youtube and found that the pictures on the video were interesting, did some googling and found it is actually a form of art, an art call surrealism.

Surrealism is a cultural movement that began in the early 1920s, and is best known for the visual artworks and writings of the group members.

Surrealist works feature the element of surprise, unexpected juxtapositions and non sequitur.

He has many great songs, this is one worthwhile to share :)

Dream, Episode 2

2011-11-03T09:57:00.001+08:00

Lately, having mutiple dreams that I am in army camp.
In my waking life, already in army camp.
Not letting me off even in my sleep,

Briefly, last night dreamt that I sneaked out of army camp during lunch hours in my soldier uniform to look up my girl as a form of surprise. She was busy so we only talked for a short while and I went to eat lunch with 2 other friends and went back to camp. Couldnt remember the details clearly but it was much more than this.

Concentration Camp
To see or live in a concentration camp in your dream, indicates that you are afraid of differences. You are having difficulties accepting others and their differences. Learn to appreciate diversity and the uniqueness in yourself and in others around you. If you actually lived in a concentration camp, the dream may signify a situation in your waking life which is triggering similar feelings felt at the time.

True enough, indeed I had the thought to give a surprise to my sweetheart by taking MC and appear at her office. But well, I am already booking out tonight. I am coming home tonight sweetheart :)

Hope your flu bug fly away soon :)

Dad, please be well.

2011-11-03T09:38:00.003+08:00

Just got a call from mum last night that my dad has been hospitalised due to low red blood cells.

I sincerely pray and wish the best for my dad's health.
Want him to be healthy and lively again.
Just hope everything is fine.

Sometimes I have to get whacked,
then start to reflect,
by the time it maybe too late.

Dream, Episode 1.

2011-10-28T12:20:00.002+08:00

Words as honourable as it is sometimes may not be the actual truth of what we think subconciously, but dream does reflect the honest feeling of how we are feeling about ourselves and life.

Last night, I had a dream on elevator. I was in it with my sister, we were taking it back to our storey.. However the elevator did not get us on to the indicated floor which we wanted and even got us over the limit of the building of 25th floor. The block was having construction on lift as it is increasing the level of storeys hence the elevator eventually reach on to the wrong floor at 40+ floor.

After then, we were stuck there for awhile, panicing if we have to get out of the elevator and slowly climb the ladder down. But after then was pushed down by one of the contractor all the way to ground floor. This is the 10% of the dream that I could remember.

Went to do an analysis on the web, and it truly reflects what I am thinking spiritually: http://www.auntyflo.com/dream-dictionary/elevator-or-lift-dream

I will be blogging more of my dreams as is a hard piss to recall compared to experience which can be easily recalled. I have been reading up on dreams and how it works for sometime as it is really interesting and a field that not many actually understands on it.

For example, a true fact of dreams is that all of us do dream during our sleep. Some people say that they did not dream last night is because that they could not remember them, but in true fact all of us do it everyday. Another fact is that when we wake up from our dreams, after 5 mins, we lost 50% of what happened in the dream and after 10 mins, we lost 90% of it.

Out-of-Training

2011-10-27T21:07:00.004+08:00

OOT (Out of Training), which means no more further training at tekong, a dream that many soldier recruits would love to have. But for me, I am going through a mixed feeling. Once again, confused. Memories started to inundate through my mind on my first day when I stepped onto the sacred land of Tekong. What happened to me was I made a decision to consult the doctor after being down for sometime due to flu, cough and sorethroat which made me unable to give my 100% for training. I decided to look for treatment.

Until when I stepped into the doctor's room, after mentioning the above symptoms. I decided to check my knee which have been a pain for me for the past 4 years that had more than 10 episodes of dislocation with the doctor. I had an x-ray and advised that my knee cap is higher up and referred to me a sports med at CGH, changi general hospital.

At CGH, doctor did several check and I was later given a thorough check on my knee with the ultrasound device (a similar one that doctor use to diagnose pregnant ladies to see the baby on the screen) With the X-Ray, the specialist diagnosed that I have 2 issues.

1) Recurrent dislocation
2) Patallex muscle (Knee ligament torn)

I will be going back for 3 appointments - 1 physiotherapy, 1 MRI, 1 Medical Review. Till now, I am staying optimistic, agreeing with my body to let myself heal from this injury which I always wanted to since my 1st dislocation when I was 16.

I actually asked myself before, what if I am given the signal to get out of course, how would I react? And the it actually happened.

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My option of signing on to the airforce as a remote control pilot can now be abolished due to my knee. However, it is just temporary till I get my knee fix well and I can start to do all my favourite sports without a worry on the back of my head. My ambition in army to get into Officer Cadet School can now be abolished due to my downgrading of pes. But thinking of it, becoming an officer is a pride. A 1 year temporary pride however such injury can be life long lethal.

After weighing all the odds, how much i may miss the chance to become a remote control pilot or enjoying the honour of being an officer. I realised I already made a decision when I said, "doctor, I would like to do a check with you on my knee." Hence, I will let it heal comfortably without worries. I needed this treatment, its already pretty late since the 1st dislocation, hope its not too late yet.

As of now, I am awaiting for the SAF medical board to downgrade my PES status and adhere for further instructions for my next vocation in this army experience. 我相信上天自有安排。

"Good Morning~"

2011-10-26T11:17:00.005+08:00

I could look at you for the whole day,
listening to you,
hearing you scolding me,
holding your hand,
staring at you,
hearing you telling me the same thing over and over again,
and will never get sick of it.

Good morning sweetheart :)

Passed COMPASS test!

2011-10-26T11:04:00.003+08:00

OH ONE THING I WANNA REJOICE WITH!

I PASSED MY COMPASS TEST! (Aka Pilot test)

Based on the test, I am qualified to become a UAV pilot aka remote control pilot, Air Warfare officer C3 (the one at control station giving instructions) and Weapon systems officer (the one analysing data in fighter jet) But but but... I am not qualified to become a pilot.

I am so happy that I got through the 5 hours test, which was mind-fucking tiring. Heard not many pass the test, so yea deserve to give myself a pad on my back :)

I need a plan.

2011-10-24T16:44:00.004+08:00

Little break from a 2 years army.
Enjoying my 5 days break.
Once again pondering... what will I become in the future?

Who are you? What are you living for? Why are you here on earth? Who do I want to be?

These 4 questions, even hesitated on the first. I realised as a teen, I am still searching for a place, a spot in the earth. I have too many ambition, dreams that I want to fufill them but I dont have enough time to do all them out. I can only choose one, but which one gurantees me the best future, which gurantees me the best stability and reward?

Sign on with the singapore airforce? Get a honourable degree and work in the society? Setup my own passion and liking, an entreprenuer? Go for my passion for adventure - scuba diver? dolphin trainer? mountaineer?

One of my biggest dream is to lay my footpath on the 5 elements in the earth that not many people has gone to the extent to, blending in with the earth and witness the real beauty of the nature - the 5 elements - fire(volcano), water(sea,waterfall, lakes), air(sky diving), wood(forests) and earth (deserts, canyon & mountains)

With this, I look at myself more of an adventurer. But how far have I fufilled on the above 5 elements. Or should I say how far have I worked to move closer to my dreams?

Suddenly I felt I could answer the 4 questions I have listed. And realising who I am now is distant pretty far from who I want to be. No joke, 20 is coming. Its time to think through what I wanna do in life, I need a life plan now. My life, my plan.

Our love is cruising up!

2011-10-20T13:19:00.003+08:00

Last weekend was another memorable one with sweetheart. It was my first cruise experience and also our first time too as 2. Had this fate to travel on to the cruise all courtesy thanks to my dearie's effort who made it to the semi final of the cruise singing competition.

Thank you dear for making this happen, and thank you fate and god for making it happen. I am fortunate to be able to cruise it up with you despite my commitment in camp. Have been thinking about this trip since 3-4 weeks back when the result was announced. I was thinking hard on how can i join you. But miracle do happens and it did, dont know how it does, but it just did. Both of us know this deep down in our heart, questioning it but secretly enjoying these moments :) I guess what happened, do happen for a reason :)

However it seems this week have been a rocky start for you with a bad night on monday and things not going the way it should be. Like I said, when things gets more complicated. Dont fret, dont panic. When you do, things may get worse and even more complicated. Its a continuing motion. So don't fret, keep yourself with a positive and open mind. I feel you have been doing well in your job these while, exceeding expectations that was set on you. So there it seems there is nothing to worry, right? Everything will be fine :)

All of our past weekends have been lovely and sweet. Enjoying each other companionship and doing things that we both like, what could i wish for more. Nothing but simply marvelous. This weekend will not be an exception. I am so looking forward to our weekend this week, lets fight hard together to get over these 2 days, or even.. 1 and a half day.. or even 1 day when you sees this. Gambateh neh! :D

相信爱就有奇迹, 我们就是奇迹.

2011-10-13T15:21:00.005+08:00

Our relationship is full of surprises, its a miracle.
Every week, or even almost everyday, theres a magical incident between us, as if there are two love angels pulling us together. Thank you for the blessings from above.

Never stop believing, when you believe, there is hope. And.... my favourite quote; Keep hope alive. So sweetheart, just be yourself and sing your passion towards music out for tomorrow's singing competition semi final round :) Be you, and believe in yourself.

When miracle happens,
it signifies something good.
So tomorrow will be a good one.
All elements are on your side,
the rest is all dependent on your own efforts.
You will do well :)

I BELIEVE IN YOU!

你我两颗心慢慢的靠近 :)

2011-10-06T23:22:00.006+08:00

When that meteor crosses path high up in the sky,
its where our love path begins its journey too.
Whenever our magical 默契 re-ignites,
i believed more you are the one.

Every night,
thanks for being that someone who I can turn to,
where I can unleash all my troubles,
share my happy happenings
helping me to charge my body battery
to the maximum for the next day.

That little giggle of yours is good enough for me to pull through all the toughness i face, thanks for appearing in my life. Not only are you my lover, but also my soulmate whom i can selflishlessly share, sweetheart :)

Happy 1st Month!
Looking back at our days in our 1st month,
Those times were good, they were lovely and worth remembered for :)
我不会甜言蜜语, 更不懂得讨女孩子欢心
我只想简单的做我自己
我只希望拥有一种能力
能让我爱的人笑咪咪
因为你我两颗心慢慢的靠近 , You belong with me :)

24th Sept @ Vivocity.
My first book out after 2 weeks confinement!
Seeing you on first sight,
that 2 weeks misery ended in a spilt second.

Told ya I would bring you to do something that you won't be doing after 21! :D

Sweetheart with birthday cake, i got the crew to sang her a birthday song.
She was shocked with the arrangement but went with it. Happy smile all over her face, and my face HAHAHA!

Lastly, hope you like the surprise I prepared for you :)

My love for you is like a candlelight,
Secretly glowing in the dark
The warmness kindles
From a tiny spark.

Few people come into our lives
and make everything shine,
but you’re one of those
rare and splendid jewels
who makes my whole world bright.
When I was sad, you made me smile.
When I was alone and blue,
you were there for me,
and you made me feel strong enough
to accomplish anything.
Because I appreciate
the many things you do,
more than words could say,
Guess the Candle of Love was the best way to express through to you, heart to heart :)

You finally find you and I collide :)

2011-09-07T23:39:00.014+08:00

From day 1, I knew you was the one.
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
Laying low on the wooden chair at midnight
With stars aligned,
as if they are stringed together.
Enjoying the cool breeze ,
and the calm sound of the wave.
As we count the stars,
something came swifting pass across our eyes.
Doubted but shouted, "METEOR!"
We looked at each other with a loud silence
Laying low again after the excitement,
another meteor flew pass once again.
How many times does one get to see a meteor?
2 meteors came flying within a night,
and only in our eyes,
as if telling us a message.
At then, I knew I can't be wrong, you are the one.

Missing the last evening at redang with you on the hammock.
I am so glad, I found you :)

Redang was an awesome place where I had many fond memories in this 4D3N trip. When we first checked in, the receptionist asked if we were siblings. And the next moment what we know is we found a "daddy", this diving instructor named khye with a special accent where his first impression was.. "Come to daddy". Siblings and daddy.. yea.. linkage.

Then we found another diving instructor came attacking to dawn during our snorkling session, named xin dong. Dawn felt so uneasy about it and made a report. 夏日么么茶 part 2 :) Then we had some good time playing monkey with volleyball after having a failed volleyball session, but it was so funny with cutie pie running around trying to catch the ball :)

Then we drenched ourselves in the curvy waves of the beautiful sea, an epic scene of my pretty girl being slapped by the wave lol. I did warned her.. maybe.. 0.5seconds? lol.

Evening was the best as in the middle of the night, i saw meteor and it was twice in a night glazing pass through me and her eyes. Love that shared moment :) Dont doubt, that was only day 1.

Day 2, we took it slower abit with my pretty girl complaining tired after snorkling session in the morning, so we all had a good 3 hours sleep. After that we went for dinner and ktv session.

Day 3 was the best, i had my pretty girl beside me most of the time that day :) Lying on the wooden chair in the afternoon enjoying the wave and heart to heart talk session accompanied with cocktails. We had an afternoon snorkling session where we felt it was the best discovering sharks and other sea creatures. Pretty girl enjoyed the most i guess, she was literally a princess. Evening time, we had to enjoy the hammock relaxation. Had some good moments with my pretty girl as well.

Life is really amazing sometimes,
It all started with a thought to find a temp job before army.
a kbox session,
a sms,
a call,
a dinner.
I never shared such connection with someone before.
I am glad you came into my life.

We had a great day today, 7th Sep 2011.
Can't take my eyes off of you.
I was late, i lost so much time,
but I promise i will make it up.
I am glad, we finally collide :)

Saying bye to emo posts, no more emo posts ever!
Cos I know I don't have to be anymore :)

2011-09-07T11:00:00.003+08:00

‎1 Universe, 9 Planets, 204 Countries ,809 Islands, 7 Seas, and I had the privilege to meet you.

2011-09-02T00:27:00.005+08:00

I may start afresh one day, deactivating my facebook account, blog, emails, msn, skype and even my mobile number.

I really need a new start. A whole new beginning where I can start all over again.
Always wanted to have a world without mobile phone, 有缘再相见.

WHY

2011-09-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

Hate emo nights, cos it sucks to know it has ended and there is no duplicate of you. Fuck the night and FML.

Be strong... shouldn't be emotional anymore. Wake up wake up.

Once in a while

2011-09-01T23:55:00.003+08:00

Couldn't resist flipping back the old dusty letters

Our times & memories was the best gift from god.
Thank you, i am happy to see you moved on. Just hope you are truly happy. I should too.

Time together is never quite enough. Cherish your loved ones.

子曰

2011-09-01T13:27:00.002+08:00

An old lao bo bo, told me this..

"人哪, 对于不知道的事情...总是抱着好奇又期待的心情. 慢慢地等上手了...就感觉自己能掌握住什么...人的野心跟傲慢是无边无际的. 你太年轻了,等你上我这个年纪呀, 你就知道了..... 人哪...不能太清醒.... 你太清醒啊就是...太清楚...你太清楚就是...痛苦"

老伯虽然看起来像个流浪汉, 但讲的话也还是满有哲理的...

Reality Check

2011-08-30T00:35:00.003+08:00

I realised I have been leaving my weekends and evenings free for a reason for the past 3 months, which actually resulted me idling most of my time and lost track of my goals. Then you realised who are the ones that actually sincerely cares for you. Life is short, appreciate the finer things, and cherish those who loves you.

Next few days will be hectic.. I supposed.
I am cooling myself down tomorrow while preparing a test on wednesday. Then will head to redang from 3 to 6 sept and getting ready for army on the 8th.

Tuesday - Prepare for COMPASS test
Wednesday - COMPASS test (1st test for pilot selection) @8am.
Thursday - Accompany friend for the search for laptop, then pack bag for redang and army.
Friday - Squash Camp
Saturday to Tuesday - Redang Trip
Wednesday - Cut Botak and spend some quality time with family
Thursday - 8th September Enlistment

After some soul-searching, i realised I have been idling my time for the past 3 months and I realised the reason. So I am gonna get back on the right track. Top priority will be shaping up, eat healthy. I will also be spending more time to focus on learning piano on my own till I feel a stage where I am comfortable that I may need a teacher. At the same time, I am considering to take up guitar on weekends when i book out from army camp.

Another business plan may be coming along as well. We see how it goes, but the above is my top priority. From now on, I will execute any promises that I make to anyone, but these promises will not come easy. Guess its time for the big boy to grow up.

For Love, I will appreciate the finer things in life and cherish those who love me, life is short. I will spend more quality time with my family. 行孝不能等.

I hope I can pass the test on wednesday. I heard it wont be easy, so well all the best for me.

Is it too late?

2011-08-29T23:56:00.002+08:00

Many asked me, "Alex, what are you going to do after army?"
Or.. "where are u going to study after army?"
So i asked myself...Is studies that important?
Does a certificate determines how smart or knowledgeable one is?
If so, this society ain't a perfect one.

Doesn't seem to favour the education system of this world, nor the education I have been receiving all these while. Do we know what we are studying for? or is it because of the pressure of this world. Is studying what we want or part and parcel that one should go through. I am not retaliating anything here, just felt the education foundation laid since young was already wrong.

Why does one has to be up high in the hierachy of an organization then would be respected and praised smart. How smart? Some people used all means to climb up to the top, but when they are really up there then they realised they lost > gain. Is that really smart?

Why one can't be an intelligent farmer as well? Since young, teachers taught us to study hard so that we can land a good job and contribute to the society in the future, even our family and older relatives says that. Imagining a kid in school, in the topic of "what you want to be in the future", mention that he wants to be a farmer. How would the other kids or even the teacher laugh at him? Hence, our mentality has slowly changed to accept the reality and become part of the reality, which is what they call educate...

Promise

2011-08-19T23:49:00.003+08:00

Being a yes person too much, i realised i have hurt people around me. From this, i learnt a lesson but unfortunately the class was dismissed. I feel it now, dejected and unforgiven. Thank you I learnt alot from you.

True

2011-08-19T18:57:00.001+08:00

Cause I did some good and I did some bad, I know what we had was true.

Held back

2011-08-15T01:43:00.006+08:00

"2 years, i can't be selfish."

Things are falling nicely into pieces, but there are somethings that I cant do. Especially after building a good relationship with someone, and have to surrender because i cant commit. 2 years, i can't be selfish. Hate it when you want to bring something to a newer level but have to control what is happening naturally. Geesh.

I dont like to throw things that I like aside, but this time, looks like I have to activate the 'stop' button.

Strive

2011-08-11T17:28:00.000+08:00

每天上班提老板赚钱, 你是否也该为自己的梦想加班?

Comrades Forever

2011-08-09T22:38:00.006+08:00

These memories are too much for me to hold, it was a hard decision. Sorry, but i promise I will be there again.

Ever since december 22 last year when i landed my feet in singapore from korea. I told myself i will be back in 2011. March 2011 I nearly made a move because my family wanted to go but mum chose taiwan in the end. July and August was an agony. Was pondering and planning hard.

After much considerations and discussions with family, friends as well as topher and daniel, came into a conclusion that I will be keeping the money instead. Many thoughts, I wanted to go real bad because the life and moments i had there was unforgettable. Topher was like a little daddy there for me, and daniel was a elder brother where both assured me that I will not be lonely there.

Reason for not going, my mum and sister was opposive, against the idea of me going there again. My mum especially but after some persuasion, she allowed. I even found a great deal of $683 included with tax to fly over on 18 aug to 27 aug, courtesy to Carol who was an ex-tour leader for 10 years. Furthermore topher has already found accomodation for me, which i dont have to pay for my accomodation. Only my meals, transport and other expenses.

But guess too bad I didnt have enough savings. I have enough for this trip, but after that I am sure I am left with nothing much. Though 683 is a good price but thinking of those expenses which estimated to be 400-500. The total amount i am spending is 1100 to 1200. Thats equivalent to 1/2 to 3/4 of my savings. I wanted to go was because the new batch of nyp students will be landing there on 24 aug, would love to show them around.

I was pondering hard, high and low until the final decision came actually from a friend i recently met, claire who is one of the student going there this month. She told me to spend it on other things like driving licence instead. And if its meant to be everything will fall in nicely. With that, i realised it wasnt falling in nicely and it would definitely be more practical to keep those money to myself and spend some quality time with my family before i enlist into army.

You were a great pal topher and daniel, but i have made a decision. Definitely i will be there again someday. With that, i flipped back to my korean phone once again and looked at the last message who came from topher, saying - "Comrades Forever."

Today is 七夕情人节!

2011-08-06T16:52:00.000+08:00

七夕节的来历：

每年的农历七月七日是中国的情人节。比起外国的情人节更是专指向「爱情」。因为外国的情人节，原旨是人与人之间的互爱，或亲情、或友情、或爱情，并非只限于男女之情。但是中国的七夕情人节，则是描述一对情侣的故事。

传说，天上玉皇大帝有七个女儿，其中最小的女儿织女，最聪明可爱、手艺又巧。天上皇宫中的重要织锦都由她负责设计与制作。另外，玉皇大帝有一群牛，由一个叫做牛郎的年轻人负责管理。两人情投意合、互相爱慕，至荒废了原本工作。于是玉皇大帝下旨，叫喜鹊告诉这两个热恋的情侣要节制，七日见一次面即可。没想到喜鹊传错话，他们以为每天均可相见，更是高兴无比，工作完全抛在脑后。

玉皇大帝这回就龙颜大怒，降旨他们每年只能见一次面，就是农历七月七日的晚上。那一天喜鹊这群肇事者就负责搭桥，让他们两人踩在他们的肩膀上相会。因为一年仅能见一次面，当然有说不完的衷曲、道不尽的悲情，于是那天几乎都会下着毛毛雨，象征两人的泪水。

从这个故事，可以看见传统中国人对于「负责的工作态度」十分看重。不过因为爱情的浪漫却使得这个七夕情人节传说走样，大家通常将焦点集中在「情侣被迫分隔两地」。强调情人好不容易见面，那种凄美绝伦的场景。于是很多因为工作、因为当兵、因为父母反对、因为求学、、各种原因分隔两地的情侣，都会希望在农历七月七日见到面。然后两人就心理投射自比为牛郎、织女，一起浸淫在这种浪漫感人「被迫害妄想」的情怀！

如果你有情人，那就好好享受这种热恋的感觉。如果你没有情人，那你就思想七夕情人节的传统教训是表达「负责任的工作态度」重要性，好好去努力工作一番吧.
七夕情人节,在这里见证你的爱情......

希望你能得到你的爱情

Search Network, Not good at saying goodbye

2011-08-06T00:58:00.003+08:00

Thank you really much for all these lovely gifts from my colleagues and i even have some left over presents since june ahaha while one of ex colleague left before me.

Really liked the MAN UTD cap alot, with the card and Rose.
I was paiseh cos i didnt prepare anything for my colleagues.
But they have been a great pillar of strength with and for me.
They taught me and it has been a great journey where i had many fond memories.

I learned negotiation skills and how to beautify words.
Its all about how you make your words sound more appealing, choice of words really makes a different. Once again, thank you.

Pick A Part That's New

2011-08-04T21:22:00.003+08:00

Its disheartening when you learnt how to accept but yet the result turned out wasn't what you expected. Awkward and disheartened.

You were actually the main reason why I didn't want to go to korea. But things seems to change, and its that fast and i did realised. Maybe sensitive and negative. I am not sure when is the next time I will learn to accept, but for now I will have to learn how to let go.

梦想

2011-08-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

我们自己都有梦想.
但可惜不一样.
有梦想是好事, 我们在同一片天空下一起加油!

巧

2011-07-31T18:49:00.003+08:00

没有巧事, 哪来的巧字.
那我们在这本已写好的故事究竟会是如何?
我们又在第几页了呢?

Music is memories best revision

2011-07-30T14:11:00.003+08:00

Life, it is just like a temp job.
Life is just a span, very temporary.
We're all in queue to the end.
Some people goes after the fame and money, and some for love.
Whatever you have chosen, cherish what you have and dedicate your time to those that truly loves you.

Music is memories best revision.

时间不够

2011-07-24T11:58:00.003+08:00

Its july already.
7 months has passed and i achieved typically nothing.
Where was my goal and dream?
I wanted a scuba diving cert, where is it?
I wanted to get a driving licence, where is it?
I wanted to shape up, where is it?
I needed braces, its not in my mouth.

I am left with 2 weeks @ Search Network.
I wouldnt say it was a waste of time, at least I made a few friends, learnt a few lessons, understood more on the employment market, seen different types of ugly people.

After this, I am left with mere 1 month before I get enlisted into the army. Not much time really, not much time.

Some thoughts on a peaceful sunday morning.

天下真的很大

2011-07-11T23:55:00.003+08:00

So much beauty, within our world. It makes me tear up, i love nature so much. I would give up everything, that was manmade. If people back then, lived without this kind of stuff. Then we could too. In my opinion.

If only our heart is as big as the earth, it would be beautiful.
Too focus sometimes on work, on studies, and on love. we forgot to appreciate these nature around us. It just tells how ignorant i have been.

Part and Parcel

2011-07-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

These 3 days hasn't been that smooth in work.
Or maybe 2 and a half days.
The 2nd half of today was a happy one with smurf :)
So much of lalalalalalalala~~

When I am sick, I cant stay at home.
I need to get out, get some sunshine and laughter.
Then i will get better.
This was what topher taught me, miss him so much.
Its July, nearly a year to september.
Those memories in korea was a beautiful dream.

默契 :)

2011-07-01T20:25:00.002+08:00

我没有这样思念过一个人.
已经习惯你的声音, 你的笑声和你的存在.
每天早上都希望看到的第一个人是你.
但今天发现看到的却只是张...空椅子.

Hais...也许我也太小男孩气了吧.

这个世界没有绝对和永远的事, 但我会握住这些温暖的回忆.

慢慢等等红灯变绿灯

2011-06-28T00:19:00.004+08:00

这个世界真的有缘分吗? 如果没那缘分,哪来的巧字?
算了, 只掸琴不谈情.

Don't forget your purpose alex.

Enlistment date

2011-06-26T16:39:00.005+08:00

The date is here
8th September, 10.45am.

Lets get it over and done with these 2 years, and a new man will be born.

Side track, 25 - 26th June @ Kukup, Malaysia.

Why are we complaining?

2011-06-20T23:54:00.004+08:00

While we are living in a comfortable environment where we do not need to worry about our 3 meals and a shelter at night, we still complain. There is someone out there who had to live on selling gums and energy drinks since 5 year old for 10 years to get 3 meals or maybe not even 3 meals, and also to sleep on stairs or and public toilets.

Why are we still complaining how hard our life is, how hard our job is, or maybe even some on the family environment they have. This guy didnt even had a chance to choose a family, an orphan since 3. He had to sell things to earn some money in exchange of food to live on and sleeping on streets.

People are complaining how much little money they have despite all the work load they are given. People are blaming governments that they are not doing enough, complaining about poor train service. We should be grateful that we have a transport service call train, if not we had be walking all around now.

Even how hard life is, is it as bad as this guy? No family, no primary and secondary education, no shelter at 5 year old. When we were all playing with toy cars and robots at 5, he was worrying about his survival.

The very last note

2011-06-19T20:50:00.005+08:00

Shared some korea and travel tips with the new batch of students going for exchange programme in september. Its a walk back again to those memories, those korean-english ascent from my roommates and those great dinner times. Its a once in a lifetime experience. Think back again, if i go back. Not many are left too. We had many accompany like the singapore girls, china and taiwan girls. But then everyone has returned to their origins. It was really a moment, a dream.

With this, I went back to my korean cellphone and flipped back those memories on messages and photos. The last message was from topher - "Comrades Forever". No matter where we are, lets fight hard for our dreams under the same deep blue sky.

It was the last coffee me and olga had.

The last moment with Young Kim.

And the final departure.

Thank you for those great memories.
From left to Right - Yi ling, Huizin, Shu Ying, Keely, Topher, Me, Mimi, Summer, Bryan

Dont be too naive

2011-06-19T01:55:00.001+08:00

Maybe I was too naive to think I was at least a friend.

Slow ride

2011-06-15T23:04:00.005+08:00

Pilot or Dolphin Trainer
I lost track.
Where was my dream?
Both needed physically fit attribute.

I seriously need to train.
I will use my weekends/ after work hours to do them.
Wanted to wait till my contract job ends.
But let me cherish what I have now, which is today.

Handbags and Gladrags

2011-06-14T23:18:00.001+08:00

Only that style workz!

2011-06-13T23:34:00.005+08:00

Stereophonics music is actually kinda nice.
Finally the right style.

Sick of tires

2011-06-12T01:06:00.002+08:00

I need to work on getting abs!

A fairytale

2011-06-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

"Ladies first, Gentleman second, Topher last"
A commonly heard phrase when me, topher and the girls head in towards a restaurant for our daily routine dinner, at least once every week, normally on a friday. Miller time/ Garten Beer. Sigh.. Wish I was still there.

It makes me just wanna fly over to korea, my mum have been opposing, telling me leave it how it how it ended, it was just an exchange.

I have searched through some airlines, cheapest i could find was airasia, $500+.
But I was thinking how can i pull through that long hours agony on the plane without entertainment. I really would like to go back to those time. If i do, gonna be in august after i complete my contract temp work at search network. I wish I struck some lottery or lucky draw that can sponsor me an air ticket over!

Hannam school life, Jeju trip, Seoul trip and unforgettable dinners. All that was reality, but it has became a dream. You know there are something that is really undescribable, you feel alot in your heart but its the same word that comes out, 'good'. People dont really understand how good is that, except the person who experienced it. Maybe i should just shut up, because i guess no one understands.

Stunned, need a new perception

2011-06-03T00:32:00.005+08:00

Where did i go wrong,
I will stand up back from where i fell.
"Its not the number of times u fall,
its the number of times that you rise back."

I told this to a participant at adam khoo camp when i was a coach, but I myself was unable to walk the talk. Shameful. Another slap on your face alex, take that and start to get back where you were. I need a new perception, positively...

Part and Parcel

2011-05-30T23:44:00.006+08:00

Last week just zoomed by,
Graduation ceremony + malaysia visit for uncle wedding and 4 days office work.
Taking a 3 days break and suddenly back to work today, was lost.
Many candidates here and there, everywhere.

This job will help me improve my skills in terms of priortising things and know what I need to do. Better in making decisions and rejecting people when necessary. I find myself poor in saying NO sometimes, trying to be the nice guy, but sometimes it backfires.

Some side pictures i took in malaysia, muar

Cute cousin, will be a pretty girl when grow up!

3 Years Memories has finalised.

2011-05-29T21:13:00.011+08:00

Graduation ceremony, 27 May 2011

Classmates 4 years, schoolmates 7 years.
Friends as a pillar strength :)
We lacked one.

The 2 small eyed!

Marc bro! Chiong ah kali kali gong!
We had our best moments in first year.
Never forget them, on those overnight stays
and going to your club for sports activities.
Especially champions league man utd vs chelsea.

Talk cock mates, lunch buddies and mahjong kakis.
Junfeng, thanks for always being there when I needed a support.
Cassandra, will never forget the dirty messages
Teck hua, you have been my tanker in disguise. You know when to cover me when I am lost with words or wronged with my words. Thank you brother.
Soo kiat, always eager to talk to people especially at night.

Johnson, never fail to bring laughter with his jokes.

My acknowledged mummy found at Giordano attachment. One of the best time in NYP.

I am glad to be from NYP!

Class BM0824!

Mahjong Kakis! ^^

Huici! always so jovial, since p4!

Pei shan, thanks for sending me at airport to korea.

Twin! We got the alike face! 25th nov face!

Thanks mr hang for your care and advices :)

Wenxi! I will miss you calling me ALEX YOONG!

Matilda, it was a pleasure meeting you.

Nadzirah, someone that i can joke and cold joke with!

This lecturer never taught me before, but no harm for a pic yea. LOL

Basketball mate!

Aashika! IBM family!

The Hannam-ians. We were talking about the all the happenings under the blue sky that we missed in korea.

Christy :)

Being sentimental, these 3 years have been a great journey in transforming me from a teenager into a young adult. Faced obstacles, and may not have handled them well enough but they have taught me and I have learnt. For all the sweats and tears I have shed in this journey, I wish to thank everybody who have been part of this growing journey and hope everyone who I know whether it be a happy relationship or unhappy relationship, I wish everyone the best in your endeavour, god bless.

3 years of memories has finalised into a paper.

Everyone needs one

2011-05-24T01:14:00.003+08:00

We were wrong placed, wrong timed.
I am glad that I overcame this date, 23rd May. I told myself that to give myself a chance and I did. It wasnt easy, but i tried to avoid seeing today's date and engaging myself as busy as possible. Though there were still signs, but I am happy to pass through today in at least to control myself. I know it aint easy, let me do it step by step. Slowly, and I will be done, for good. I hope it was a good day for you too, hopefully I will forget this date one day. By then, we will realise we had made the right decision from the start.

The trip to korea was also one of the reason for me to stay away and stop thinking, I will want to make it a worth it trip by at least progressing. Turning 20 this year, it was a 15 year old boy promise. Now i am telling myself to stop living in denial and give myself a chance beacause, everyone needs one.

Good May

2011-05-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

The night is getting warmer these days over the past few weeks.
And since 2 weeks when i first started, now I have settled down at Search Network.
Being a 19 year old chap doing interviews with candidates who are looking for job, I have received comments from many, "You look very young, how old are you?" I interviewed people all the way as old as 55 year old. But I am not there to judge them or anything, I am there to help them to get a job in a position they enjoy doing.

The fun about this job is seeing different types of people during interviews. Many would be the traditional ones who will be serious and professional while some can chit chat with you asking interviewer if you had lunch. I had one interviewee that exposed me a poly graduate, true enough and after admitting it, she gave me a good 15 mins lecture on the tactic to secure higher salary when looking for jobs and asked me when I didnt want to work other place else with higher pay.

While some promised to come for interview and in the end disappear, disappointment. Seeing different charactertistics of people at tense situation in making a decision, just showed the true form of individuals.

On the bright side, when there is a success deal in helping someone to find a job, there will be a sense of achievement which push me further in working more diligently. It could be pure luck that the person's resume fell into my inbox or it could be that I slotted the right person on the right job.

Again, 19 year old chap interviewing people, you dont get that alot. It can be a good thing or a bad thing, but I see it in a positive manner. I will strive to do my best, my main objective is to gain experience and enjoy the process of recruitment and selection with a blend of sales. Awesome, its another may that I am gaining something new and good.

Someone who can't let go of memories

2011-05-17T22:43:00.006+08:00

It was a place where I called, home.

Time flies,
and I am not fully utilising it well.

Was in Korea last year september,
and look.. its may now.
more than 8 months have passed.
near 5 months since i left korea.
Just misses that place and buddies I had.

Did a skype session with topher and msn convo with daniel, havent been talking to them regularly, probably like once a month. But this time just misses their presence so much, makes me wanna fly over to korea alone for a visit. They are having holidays soon, it will be a great time for me to go over. Only concern is $!

Those great times, those rare found brotherhood, are unexplainable. They are too good to be true. Makes me remember this sentence again - cherish what you have.

I havent been hoping on to these memories for sometime, but some emails from another batch of nyp students who are embarking on a trip to korea for an exchange just like what I had, inundated these memories. Thanks for bringing me through this journey once again. Tae Ha Min Gu!

Sojus and Beers were our daily necessities

Maybe I'm dreaming

2011-05-15T19:48:00.004+08:00

Gifts bring back memories,
that were once really nice.
Thank you for keeping them.

The Mid May Confession

2011-05-15T01:37:00.004+08:00

A change, a temporary change to my lifestyle.
Had a 3 weeks good time doing sports, gym, running and swimming , also spending time with friends. This week, my life has started shifting to working as the primary factor in my life. What i have been doing are the secondary factors.

New job, new lifestyle. Its not starhub, universal studio, mediacorp, adam khoo or esplanade now. Its a recruitment consultant at search network, recruitment agency. Job scope is helping people to find jobs. Interview and selection comes into place. Advertising on various job portals, calling people up to schedule for interviews. It has been something that I think is awesome and cool to be doing. Hence, the reason I joined. I wanted to be unemployed all the way till I get into NS. But I realised I need money for my braces, driving licence, future education and other emergency purposes. and also something i am still working towards to.. scuba diving cert.

Doing my best to map a life where I can earn money and at the same time gain some useful experience, also making time for squash, gym, basketball and meeting friends. I am enjoying what I am doing at the moment which is also my goal for 2011. Do what is meaningful, with integrity and with a targeted goal.

Again, I am putting myself in an endangered environment once again where only the strong stays. I have a target to hit for this job, how many people I helped in getting a job, how much I helped the company earn. If my performance is unsatisfied where it will be reviewed in a weekly meeting, I will be asked to leave. I was feeling emotional when my colleague who sat beside me who I have enjoyed talking to for a week, just left the company like this. I didnt witness the departure, it was lunchtime. I was lost for words, really.

This is what its like in the society, there is no humanity when it comes to money. If you are not a good money generator, you will be expelled. Why has the human race world changed to this? Does money measures a person's worthfulness? It is very disheartening. Though saying that, I believe I have the competencies for this position, thats why I am here. First is to proof myself that I am up for challenges, second is that whether I am good enough. Sometimes I ask myself, am I good enough? I dont know... I need a test. Here I am.

My schedule has been getting abit hectic recently.
Monday - Work , then basketball in school till 9.30pm
Tuesday - Work, then squash in school till 9.30pm
Wednesday - Work, then OT/ dine out/run/swim/piano/rest
Thursday - Work, then squash in school till 9.30pm
Friday - Work, then OT/ dine out/run/swim/piano/rest
Saturday & Sunday - Hangout/Gym/Tzu Chi/Run/Piano/Computer games

I am playing tennis and squash on sunday tomorrow :)
But not every week i do that on sunday, actually first time.

Got them planned out is good, now next thing i wanna do is to fully utilise my time. Sometimes I feel that in MRT, i have 10-20 mins, but I am doing nothing. Thinking of nonsense. Maybe its time to get a ipod/ipad. Or just read a book on the MRT. it saves the cost.

Thank you for everything, I am liking this may.

If there are anyone out there who is looking for job - temp/perm,
Dont hesitate to look for me please!
Send resume to my email -> medsci@searchnetwork.com.sg
I will call you up! or you can call me during office hours at 65368060 , just look for me, Alex :)
I will be committed in looking for a job for ya, just by an easy email from you!

We had once upon a time...

2011-05-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time,
There was a village where some humans are equipped with wings and unfortunately some do not. There was an ordinary little boy who is one of the unfortunate ones without the wings, he was playing in the backyard of his village, he was running around with butterflies. Running after those butterflies, made him ran further and further from his village, he soon discovered a cliff.

The little boy was curious what lies at the bottom of the cliff, as he went closer to the edge of the cliff, he then soon realised it is a very deep end, where he could hardly see any visible sights of ground.

Then came a gentle female voice that seems to come from the bottom of the cliff, "Hello, you are? Wanna be friends?" The little boy made friends with the anonymous voice from the bottom of the cliff and came by often to the cliff to chat with her.

After a week, both the little boy and girl enjoys each other accompany. One day when the little boy makes him daily routine visit again and after a day chat when he was about to leave. The girl said, "Come down, I will play with you forever at the bottom of the cliff." The boy was sceptical about it, he replied, "No way, how do I know you can be trusted, what if I dropped down and you run away!" the girl replied, "You got to trust me, there are many fun things around here and I will be here with you too forever." The little boy decides and thought about it, he enjoyed the girl accompany and would wish to become more than just a distance chat friend. But he knows once he jumped, there is no turning back. He wanted trust and forever, which the girl promised, hence he jump down.

The little boy was happy to see the girl, she was a pleasant looking and decent girl, she was one of the few fortunates one equipped with wings. They spent sometime together going around at the deep end of the cliff. The little boy got happier day by day to be able to spend his lifetime with this girl for eternity which he has trusted.

However after a year, the girl became bored as it has become a routine with the same few activities. One night, she told the boy that she has got enough and done. Equipped with wings, she flew up the cliff searching for new excitement of life. Leaving the little boy at the bottom of the cliff alone.

Being a wingless little boy, the boy could only stay at the bottom of the cliff. He was devastated of the promises and trusts that were said but till then it became bits and pieces of sand flowing in the air where its all gone. He didnt know what was the reason of her departure, he could only shout up to the top of the cliff of the girl's name, hoping she would pass by one day. The girl finally came one day but with another guy, the little boy asked why she left but it was an empty reason. The little boy hopes for her return, but the girl said, "Sorry, I cant bear to leave this guy and awesome place now."

Every now and then, the girl would visit the little boy but coming with a different guy every visit. The little boy then realised that trust was just an empty bowl and those promises were made for fun. Now the boy is stuck at the bottom of the cliff, all he could do is to wish someone who is strong to pull him up from the cliff.

Will there be a miracle where someone would appear to lift the boy up to where he came from? Or the little girl would come back for the little boy. Well...

How many times does a butterfly blink,
before it learns to fly?
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars,
But how many there will remain?
Even as I fly, you fall
So close as I hear you breathe.
So sorry, I didnt keep hold of you.
I don't know why you had to leave,
How I could ignore my every cry,
All the while the downpour of my tears shattering the ground,
So clearly pierced my heart.
You don't know why I had to keep away,
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
So many are the things you never know.

Keep me movin'!

2011-05-05T23:33:00.004+08:00

Teared sport shoe and cracked squash racquet made me invest $250 into it again. Visited Queensway and got a racquet for $160 and $90+ for a shoe suitable for squash. These 3 weeks have been putting my mind back to squash.

There is a nice community in the team with old and new friends which makes you feel like you are not playing alone but in a team. I feel active when I am doing sports and running.

And most importantly, I am able to throw away all my stress, problems or regrets aside while playing. Simply able to stop thinking on all the materialistic factors in life and all those problems that i find them disturbing. Get focus on to the game on how you want to play it right and whack all your troubles out. Though they do return after the 4-5 hours of squash, but thats reality. Part and parcel of life.

Changing a shoe and a racquet means that I got to start improving, seems that my forte is running. I will train on that more by running 2.4km more often. Well, goodbye my 3 year old supreme racquet which accompanied through my squash journey and competitions.

Ready?

2011-05-04T22:19:00.006+08:00

Opportunities are widely opened,
but only reserved for those who are ready.
I realised I am not ready.

During SMU Interview, I was reflecting on my 3 years poly classroom life on how I behaved in class. Then I think again, am I a university person? I am playful and likes to take it easy in the class. I seldom attend to my tutorials. But I want to bring my education to the next level. I want it but I know I aint ready.

The consequences of unreadiness is that you see how others who are on the go and ready, how simple they can do it. There will be a little inferior mindset flooding for sometime.

Well, Its over. Dont dwell on things that are over. Nothing can be changed. Its an experience that i take with me and be able to share with others.

1) English Test
- Compre 30 mins. A comprehension passage that certainly gonna squeeze your brain juices with the familiar yet lost-touched vocabularies, together with questions that ensures to be difficult for you. Not easy, really not easy. 4 questions and about 3-4 sentences expected answer for each. The last question was asked us to rebut the author, even though how good u felt the passage was, try to find a way through to find any weak spot.

- Compo 45 mins. 2 questions choose 1. An Open question that you can use it as an expository or maybe narrative and another one an argumentative. The last time i did a compo was 2007 GCE O levels. Vocabs were stucked, felt like a rusty dictionary that cant do much.

2) Reading Article Small Group Discussion.
A 15 mins discussion then straight to the interview room where the reading article will then be rediscussed with 2 professors and some questions that they ask.

- Who are you & whats your passion?
- What are your views on gap year? And would you go for gap year?
- If you were the dean of SMU, would you make work experience a criteria to enter SMU?
- Why SMU is the right choice?

I made a mistake on not answering one of the question earlier as I was skipped for one. I did make some good points clear out though, hopefully I was recognised by those.

A Labour Day @ East Coast Park

2011-05-01T23:44:00.003+08:00

When you are in a dilemma whether you want to stay home or get your ass out to meet out with friends. My answer is.. why not just lie on your bed for 15 mins and you may well decide what to do next. And you may make that day more meaningful or even light up your day.

And today was my virgin experience on roller blading. All to think that I wont be touching that 4 wheel sided thingy for whole my life and i did it today. Thanks to the 3 girls who helped me with my 1st roller blade experience. I was no where near an amatuer skater but at least i overcame a fear on the thinking.. "I will break my leg if i roller blade" LOL.

We had some fun talking, and it was a pleasure. Sometimes you just feel the right people come into the right time into your life. Its odd, but thats how miracle life sometimes is. Thanks Squashmates.

Though blading was an experience, but still back to the old school cycling :)

We ate like kings, costed nearly a hundred bucks full of food.

Got Seng Yong tried out on Sunglasses and his gf with the never ending laughter was so happy after she commented him looking like a "Se Bei Bei" Pervert. See how happy she is to have a pervert boyfriend.

Be contented.

2011-04-30T22:52:00.004+08:00

Dont understand why is there a fight in Singapore over politics positions. Because of trying to fight for the rights, get your voice to be heard? Is it power that you want to get hold or simply trying to show how good you are. Comparing to Japan who just had several earthquakes and tsunami. Disaster. Why cant humans start to realise we shouldnt be fighting among our own race for such meaningless battles. Trying to improve the singapore living standard and economy. Is singapore living standard that bad? If you really have that heart, why are you fighting on politics over such matters. If you have the right heart, Zimbabwee and other 3rd world countries needs you. Humans are never satisfied, seriously never satisfied.

Oppositions only step out when there are such events, but when someone really needed you for the past 4-5 years when there isnt a election, WHERE WERE YOU? I rest my case.

SIngapore, Fishing Village

2011-04-29T23:45:00.006+08:00

1st Fishing expeience today,
yea it is new, something fun, something different. But after that, reflected on my own, its a cruel thing to do. Imagining getting your mouth hooked up by others. 瘸德! Guess I wont be wanting to do this. And whats more we are all living things, what rights do I have to play with other living earthling or even causing a death because of the lack of their natural environment habitat.

Nevertheless, its a good experience and thank the 3 guys who helped me today with this, 2 that i just met. Jonathan, with his cousin Allan and his secondary sch friend yong jin. Nice people.

Just wanted to upload pics on fishing experience, but found more pictures for the past 1 week. So lets look through whats going on this week.

Waiting, patience is virtue

we had some accompany, and maybe some audience

the quiet beach

the calm after the storm

Ready to say some goodbye, some nice view yea.

Found this somewhere near bugis junction.

Had lunch this on thursday, ytd with TWS.
While we buy his f'ighting gear'

Family outing, this is my little cousin 10 year old. thaats why i was on my mario shirt.

Mahjong with these 3 people. Look at how teck hua is eating his double mcgrill. LOL we were all laughing, wishing he had ate it more delicately. And above, no doubt its an adultery.

TGIF, MISSION ACCOMPLISHED :D
with Ms Sihui.

What are you born to do?

2011-04-26T12:42:00.003+08:00

What would you do if someone hits you on your head.
Even if its your boss, on your very 1st day work.

I felt I was humiliated.
I maybe traumatised.

Happily went for my 1st day of work but what a job that I thought it will be really meaningful turned into an idiotic job. What i have found was a photographer assistant job, something different that many fresh diploma graduates would do - sales, admin and customer service. My motive for this job is to learn something new like photography skills, but it wasnt the case. He wasnt looking for an assistant. He was looking for someone to scold at, someone to order and boss around at, a slave. If I helped him with chores, I would have been made an abused maid.

Asking me to set-up on equipments who are really pricey, when I wasnt given any training on it before. He expect me to have that gifted talent that when I see things, I know what to do. You know, for that its ok, i take it like a man. I managed to figure out ways to set it up, slowly. He was pissed by that and started to roll eyes at me. Uh huh, was that a smart thing to do? You cheapo dont wanna invest on training, dont wanna teach. And now you are rolling your 45 year old eyes. Ok i take it like a man. He expects me to anticpate what he wants to do next, when its my fucking first time here working for him.

You know its ok to instruct me, because i am your assistant, but I am not your dog. Say it nicely, but he doesnt know how to do that. He is a fake man, or maybe not even one. I hate fake people. After criticising me, he will definitely add an MSN alike emoicon, ><. For god sake, if you are criticising, do it like a man please. When he ask favour from the hotel ballroom technician, it was the fakest moment i have ever seen. Treating me like a doggie and treating the technician like an emperor. Why does human race have to treat each other differently? We are humans afterall, no one should feel or to be treated inferior or superior. Because we are all the same. If you think money can divide the human race, you have failed in life. Why can we only unite and treat each other equally when we face dangers like tsunami or earthquake? Because thats the only time u wake up and stop thinking about money.

In the mid of the shoot, there was an unpleasant incident that while I was connecting a new light, pulling the extension, another light fell off from 8 feet high. I got to take that blame and i apologised. But when the thing fell, his black face turned blacker, Bao Jing Tian with those typical singaporean kena screwed face cramped into one spot and he gave me a good karate slap from behind through my head. I was sorry and I didnt want to bounce back from the hit as it was my fault.

But subsequently he got the addiction and do such similar actions, he thinks he got the hang of it. When everything ends, I exploded at him. When he thinks he is getting the hang and can treat everybody around him like dogs, i gave him a good session. I could have sue him for 1) violence, it was intentional and deliberate. 2) Worker Abuse, even though he is my employer, he wasnt given the rights to hit me. 3) Insult that caused me bad reputation, he kept scolding these 3 words - bloody, fucker, bastard. Put them together and you get a good combination. All these are good enough to give him a good stay behind the bars. I believe there could be more to add.

After hearing that, he was angry but he kept quiet. He became a good pet and tone down his voice immediately, trying to talk it out to me. Saying I am a good man, a clever guy, read through my credential. How fake can he be, i hate fake people.

I do not know where his attitude came from, could be from young when he got bullied or from the army. But this aint army, this aint your school, this is society where everyone has the rights and justice.

I take this as a valuable experience, taking it like a man. It just tells me one thing, people are designed to do different things. And I cant call myself an all rounder because I was born with a retaliate mind, to avoid scoldings and slaps. With that i told him, "KC, i think i should go." Bye the picture makers.

Thank you once again for letting me vent it all out here.

a 19 young chap doing what now?

2011-04-20T23:20:00.005+08:00

Finally getting back to this blog.
Thank god.
I was unable to post anything, was thinking could be a maintainence that blogger is experiencing, but it went on for about 2 weeks. Nearly pushed me to the wall to stop blogging, but well glad that i am back here thanks to the millions answers google provides. Just change your browser if you are encountering such problem too. Get a firefox. Blogger supports Internet Explorer and Firefox.

Coming to this context,
If you are asking me.. what am i doing now.
I cant give you an answer, because i dont have one too.
But maybe i am able to figure something out from here today.

1) Gym
2) Swimming
3) Running
4) Squash

Hence this category we call it Exercise?
Slim Up & Muscle Up sounds nicer.
Coming up, I may be doing Fishing.

Going on...

5) Piano Self Learn
6) Read Books

Normally i do this at night from 9 to 11,
we call it Music & Books.
If sometimes I dont reply on msn during this timing, u know the reason now :)

Those are my routines..continuing..

7) YouthCentral
A new media&print website that I am working on with a team passionate in this too. We love to get people who enjoys in the media field like Photography, Shootings or Writing articles, having a column, or even to dream of being a DJ, we let you live it up with us first. We are also looking into music field, on promoting local budding talents and also to promote the classical symphony music for soothing music when everyone needs them once in a while. If you are interested in fulfilling any of your interest/passion, or if you are in a band, who works on music, and goes jamming often, wish to gain recognition. Please come to us, we got the platform. Feel free to contact me: alexyoong@youthcentral.sg , and heres more information on http://youthcentral.sg

That was one of the reason why I quitted my current job and decided not to work, because since 16, this has been my passion. We only live once, live it up. Thats my true definition of, get a life.

And last..

8) Volunteer activities
Ok you may be surprised, I know I dont look like. But I do hide many things. I have been in this volunteer organisation, Tzu Chi since I was 11. Hmm, 9 years we call it here. Its a buddhist organisation that i can say isnt pro buddhist because we welcome even christians coming in, but for sure there is a common goal.. Contribute to the society, Charity work and Save Earth. They also practice the art of hand sign language. I also picked up some hand sign language there and performed before, yea its a miracle rite.. But its me alex yoong. I wasnt active, theoritcally for past 4 years for some reasons I stopped. Realised the importance now, I dont wish to say much. But stop for awhile, look at how many disasters are there outta right now. We are also considering small ones like floods in indonesia and malaysia. You may not notice, but they are coming in. I always believe in one thing, what we took, we return. Earth gave us a place, without us asking permission. Its call theft right.. what we can do now, is to give back, help this earth.

100% Focus

2011-04-17T00:24:00.004+08:00

99% of the businesses fail on their 1st attempt.
90% of these business failed due to insufficient motivation.

Its not easy, really.
Huge motivation on the owner for himself and to motivate others around him.
Simply, you have to be motivated to motivate others.

2011-04-12T18:41:00.002+08:00

Went for an interview on HR position, but the interviewer says i got a recruitment trainer face.

Futuristic electric car

2011-04-10T20:07:00.003+08:00

Cars - Electric Car - Spaceship like car.
You see them coming?

Dont pray, do something.

2011-04-04T20:56:00.010+08:00

Havent been to the pool for almost half a year, lost touch and i really did. Always having the habit to go down to the pool with my trunks and pants. Realised that the pants that i wore out together from my house was the one that i wore it down to the pool, what left was nothing but a wet pants after showering. Well, how stupid was that. Walked home from the swimming complex back to home with a wet pants. Awfully awesome? I almost made a fool of myself, luckily had the pants in black, if it was white with a red underwear inside. 2nd Quarter of the year has started, hope everyone who have listed their new year resolution is 1/4 there. For me, i need to move faster! Being a youngster, still trying to find a status in the society, finding a belonging to this world. Who am I actually? Who can I be? What do i want to do? Where do i see myself? How do i accomplish my dreams? With whom? Anyway to the regards of the recent disasters, Australia flood, New Zealand Earthquake, Japan Tsunami & Earthquake and Myanmar earthquake in just these 3-4 months. Is the mother earth venting its anger? I have borrowed this land earth for more than 19 years, but what have I done in return for the earth or am i just hurting this land even more day by day. Taking it for granted, we are assuming that we have tomorrow and tomorrow. But we are severly damaging this land, what rights do we have to assume that we can borrow this earth once again tomorrow. Influenced by the society pressure, many of us wants to get a cool job, earn good $, be rich and drive a mercedez. Some even backstab own mankind and hurt each other humans to get to that stage. Why are we hurting each other when all of us are all the same on this world breathing the same air, stepping on the same land? These goes out to the same theory to all life in earth, eating and eating meat. We are all living things in this earth, we have a priceless life, what rights do we have to consume other's life? Wake up mankinds. Stop praying and crying when these disasters happens, no use its too late. We created this, its all our doings. I believe in economic theory - demand and supply. If there is a demand then there will be supply. Vice versa, if there is lesser demand, lesser supply. I want to play a part in paying back to the world. Even though its just a year if 2012 sayings are true, I want to play a part to make worth count in this world. From young we are taught what we borrow, we have to return, if not its counted as steal, as a thief. Its time for me to return back to this earth. I officially turn Vegetarian. Dont worry on the economics that if lesser pple eat meat, there will be lesser income for resturants and each of them will close down one by one, which affects the economic of the country. Why not change these meat restaurants into vegetarian restaurants/fast food. Or did you forgot once there was a time that money doesnt even have to bring it out into place, when there is a mutual trust between people. Just because mankinds love reward, money was invented and everyone loves the way it is - drinking, shopping, clubbing. Some even use it for plastic surgery. Wake up, when tsunami/earthquake strikes, its ALL gone including you. And how many people in this earth would remember you, respected you, and I ask myself here - "how much have I returned to the earth or have I been a thief for the past 19 years? " Apart from vegetarian-ing, I am quitting my job and focusing on doing recycling and helping the needys. If there is anyone else interested, sms me.

Naruwa~ Taiwan!

2011-04-01T22:57:00.004+08:00

A great month has just passed, March 2011. Bali + Taiwan back to back (I may be addicted to taking planes now) Taiwan food was ultimately crazy. Especially in night market, I could afford eating 3-4 meals. Which clearly explains that I put on 4kg. How nice is that when I am already facing problem with dieting. Enough of the food, Taiwan scenery was a spectacular, 乡下places have very nice views. Just nice that I stayed over at my friend's place was 乡下 though unexpected. There wasnt even a single taxi around the area, neither one parking there waiting for you at the nearest train station. I believe I had a great experience there, i really did. Some incidents, some occassions, just made me reflected on my doings in life. Whether I was doing the right things, whether I am being a upright person, and again my goal in life. I may have took a slap, but it has definitely awaken me up. Now is actions than words. Quick Highlights of Taiwan:

Homesick O' No

2011-03-22T18:32:00.002+08:00

Despite all the fun,
I admit I am homesick.
A common cycle one will go through in a different environment '4H': Honeymoon-Homesick-Hate-Homesweethome.

Missing my mum alot.
A scene today when i passed by a temple, saw an old lady, probably in her 60s. Could barely find a black hair on her, could say all white. Me and my friend, both of us were looking around for directions. Happen to met her, showed a benevolence face with wrinkles and of about 150 height. Somehow somewhere i could find a resemblance of my mum. I looked at her closely, and the thought of that mother would aged like her one day killed my strong front that i have to put. I was secretly tearing out of nowhere. She just resemble my mum alot, not very much on the look but the way she talk to us and how nice she was.

Everyone ages, many know this but dont understand and i dont too. We can do all we want in life but there is a time limit to filal piety. I just think i am not a good enough son.

Live it up

2011-03-12T23:45:00.003+08:00

Even though there are billions of people in the world.
We lead a different life, a different story.
Dare to be yourself and be proud to tell your story outloud to your grand kids or others one day.
Live it up, be yourself.

Bali, Ubud Village

What am i doing?

2011-03-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

You only live once,
Live it on purpose,
not by accident.

Its really dumb to say that
we need these words to constantly keep track and remind us on life

After 2 months coming back from korea.
i look at myself in the mirror and reviewed
Where am i towards where i want to be, but it seems little movement forward.
I feel there is more in me to offer...
I need to get a refresher and get back my motivation.
I cant spend my day daily with starhub and perfect world.
I need a main purpose.
Give me a good 3 weeks break to sort it out.

GMI

Take a deep breathe

2011-02-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

I have not,
I am glad :0

3rd Month/12, where am i?

2011-02-26T22:43:00.003+08:00

Whereever you go, Its the people that makes the place.

A random thought:
Friend, whats your definition?
I may have lost you.

Thrilling March coming up:
Travel
1) Taiwan - 15 Mar - 27 Mar
2) 4D3N Bali - 7 Mar - 10 Mar

Fulfillment
*3)YC Committee Meet up*

For cultivation, For life.
Goal, Meaningful, Integrity.

Actually there are many things we can do in life.
Scuba diving,
Hiking,
Parachuting,
Travelling.
A greedy mind of mine, wants them all.
Durian field trip, Bintan holiday, Snorkling...

Once upon a time in Korea

2011-02-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time, A teenager, 18 year old boy made a dream, a really long dream. He entered the dreamland in the early september of 2010. His mission was to experience a student life without friends by his side supporting him because he thought he will be left alone without all his friends who has been supporting him for the 3 years in poly. Instead, he met 2 comrades in the first month, these 2 have been a pillar of strength for him. Phrasing it again, these 2 are the best mates he ever had in his life. One is an american, another an african. and of cos with the boy, an asian. The widest spread of combination one ever can have. Among anywhere else in the world, these 3 indifferent people with different ethnicity, culture, values and belief met in a country call korea.

They hang out together at miller time, a bar that they would visit there at least once each week. They too hangout at another bar call garten bier without fail, almost every friday with other friends from singapore and taiwan. Although its expensive, but it doesnt seems to be for some reasons. Maybe because the american, topher who is a professor has been paying them all the while until he finally made it clear that he needs to reserve some money for his datings, finally.

How did the little boy met topher? Many call it bullshit, but let me call it fate for once. It started when the boy was on his way to the international staff office in school, accompanying keely who has been trying different ways to get her laptop fix. Finally, her boyfriend decided to send her one from singapore. Some delivery problems caused keely knocked on the door of international office every now and then, almost every few hours daily. For this once, we walked to the office, for the same routine to enquire the status of the delivery. However, they thought it has been really un-nice of her to knock there often, hence they turned back and took a detour and decided to walk back to dormitory. After a few miles, realising that they are closer to the office than dormitory. Hence decided to walk towards the office. This cycle happen for 3 times on the spot, until they realised they are just at the door step outside the office. Walked into it, "HELLO!" by the little boy to all the staffs in the office. Walked over to one of the staff, asking the same question, "Hi, has the laptop arrived yet?" but to no avail. Then came a guy who was doing some printing at the machine, turned over to us and said, "HI!, are u guys from singapore?" That was how they met. The first dinner on that day with him and other girls from singapore. It was also the standard introduction he would make, "My name is topher, here here look at this! *Point below and lifting his shoe up* Toe--- and... *Fold up his sleeves and point at his hairy arm* ---fur, "toe-fur". " I will never forget this.

Topher, a guy who would do funny actions and yells at people unknowingly. Lets talk about his appearance. A huge belly guy with blonde hair. Nah its alright, back to his character. Someone who yells at the video game in the middle of the night even at 2am, so much until his neighbour who stays from 3 rooms horizontally apart could hear. His room is unbelievably.. ugly. The little boy have been asking to go over to join him in some halo on xbox360. He has been warned that his room would be in a mess. Truly a big mess, a room full of beer bottles, cans, and some green tea bottles, with the bottle caps scattered all around too. So much that one can even swim inside the room through the beer bottles. Once they cleared his room, half done and it made 16 black garbage bags full. Gave up after the 16 bags, oh mine. That was the reason why topher treated the little boy to Jin & Kino for some omelette rice before doing the cleaning. The boy was smiling, because it was a treat but never did when the room of topher door opened.

Daniel on the other hand, is a cool african who keeps calm, he laughs really loud with his mouth wide open, but he has got a good laughter that the little boy is jealous of. He would always call the boy out for lunch & dinner almost everyday, "Hey, how are you?", "I am in the dorm", normally the boy would answer. They shares the same sorrow and complaints towards some culture shock and ugly behaviours of some dorm mates, all were koreans except both of them, so ya know. Lunching place these 2 would always go, the backyard auntie shop with a outdated TV and others nearer to the campus, Jin & Kino, Ting, Gimbap, Hansol, Matzzhang. For dinner these 3 would always go out together to Boor chicken, Dasarang for pizza and beer. Miller time. These 3 places are the top visits, no wonder the little boy gained some weight. Also, some japanese food, some chinese food @ chao chao. And of cos after that, the favourite ice cream shop, Baskin Robins. Many times, after meal, they would go out and catch some toys at the toy-claw machine. Sometimes it looked like they are donating money, but mostly the machines are the ones donating dolls, catching more than 30 toys.

How this boy met the african dude, this would have to rewind back to the very 1st day when the little boy started his day out in korea. Trudged wearily with 2 luggages to the new exciting 'home' that the boy will be staying in for 4 months. Opened the door, found shoes lying around on the floor where there were not much space to open the door fully, furthermore on squeezing shoes around it. Went in, found out a big tall muscular guy sleeping at 12.30pm. Waked him up and the little boy introduced himself quickly while the guy went back to sleep back immediately afterwards. He had mini eyes, but really good shape that says, 'dont mess with me'. After a few hours, talked abit and asked if want to meet a black guy from africa and he describes, "hey, you wanna meet this black guy from africa? really black."The impression of black guys were that , they are really fierce. And that was the first impression daniel gave. He was topless, wearing a pair of jeans as always. Havent see him in any shorts before. These 2 were like buddies to the little boy. He felt home there, he felt he had a family.

The boy went on to make some acquaintances mainly from china and taiwan. He met two chinese girls in a church where he was forced to go as part of a compulsory session even though the church session is in korean. After which, they exchanged contact number and went on to go to zoo, themepark, safari and flowerland together. The boy even went to mountain climbing and even Jeju island with one of them. It was a good and sorry experience for him in Jeju island because of JimJilBang. He had some really good time there where he climbed the highest mountain in korea with 10kg of bag and 3 teddy bears hand carried throughout the 10 hours journey in a 1950m mountain. I guess he was the first to do that with 3 bears.

After which, topher introduced 2 taiwanese girls to the little boy, trying to upsell the boy to the girls, saying he is single here and there and everywhere. It didnt work out the way topher wanted but it did worked out on a friendship way where these 2 cheerful and cool girls were like the most steady people that the boy can rely and talk to.

Every story comes with a little bit of spice and herbs. This boy had on the last month of his stay. He met a lovely lady from ukraine. They have been classmates all along since the start of the semester, but nothing special until the last month. They actually started talking on the korean lunar day, chuseok when there was a rice cake making session. It was her 20th birthday too. They actually spent sometime together unknowingly. They went to seoraksan, and dined together, chatted during games unknowingly. There was 0% deliberation. It all started when the little boy was planning a trip to seoul and lovely lady wanted to join too. It didnt happened for the first time, but yet they went to seoul in the end too, with just 2 of them. A young man and a lovely lady was seen walking down the busy road of seoul, with shophouses around, as glitters of snows started falling down as the lady go closer to the young man while hugging his right hand, hand in hand. All these things was what the boy have been dreaming of all the while, to experience winter sonata with someone special. They went out together for sometime, catching 4D movie, Harry Potter and The Tourist and spent sometime watching movies on the net too. However, all these came to an end one day sadly. When they bid farewell on the last night, one said, "there is no promise". That dies the flame. The boy is in a dilemma.

Anyway, he still have his comrades. Comrades will be comrades forever. 35 year old - 24 year old - 19 year old. Topher - Daniel - Alex

Despite, having a different opinion on korean guys, the little boy made a good pact with a korean guy named Young Kim. His character stood out, he was those that would put in effort for friends and people whom he care for and dont ask for returns. The boy was with him most of the times sitting side by side in the class. They scold each other bitch and even sat along the road and rate girls from a distance. A hobby that Young Kim normally do. When the boy are lost with the korean culture and words sometimes, the first person he would contact is Young Kim. They head out to the table tennis court often, almost everyday. A good friend indeed. If there is a ranking, other than the 2 comrades and the ukranian. Young stands 4th.

There are many things that in life we cant buy with money. Such experience was a great opportunity. An american, african, ukranian and korean. Being friends with them was something that no one can ever could have guess. I was glad that I was in korea, in daejeon, in hannam. I didnt learn much, but i experienced much.
Made the friends of my life.
Toured at Seoul on my own.
Toured at Jeju with 2 new friends.
Taking care of my expenses and welfare.
Decide on my own what i want to do.
6pm dinner everyday.
Climbed the highest mountains in korea.
Visited sex museum park.
Had my first snow experience when i was 19.

Everything is in the heart, too much to learn.

Thank you, topher. Will always miss you telling us how great the new games are, the TV dramas and of cos the dinners with topherisms :) I learnt a word from you, 'embrace'.

Thank you, daniel. Will always remember how awesome we are at the toy machine, I learnt a word from you, 'carefree'.

Thank you, olga. You made me felt special, always remember that my hair is shiny :)

Thank you, summer and mimi. I found 2 great friends from taiwan as well as one as a tzu chi mate. Thank you for being so lively always, it helps brightens my day.

Thank you, Young Kim. You were a great pal and a good classmate to sit with. Miss us playing table tennis, will never forget that you like to rate girls along at the small road opposite business building.

Thank you, tingting, tao zhen and yingyan. I was happy to make good acquaintances with you all, i had my best time in jeju :)

Thank you, Lee chan, Jeon Wu Heong, Park Chong Ming. Best room, great roommates. I was lucky to be allocated to a room with you all. I felt I was welcomed with you all everyday when i reached back to the dorm.

It was an unforgetful korea story...

Not ready

2011-02-13T20:26:00.005+08:00

自知自明, let me slim down first ba.

'G'-'O', GO! Felt good to run.
I found my own motivation to run now.
For myself.

Back ago, some said I slim down
I took it for granted.
I really did.
I am looking at those pics, running to get them.

Slim down starts on 14 feb.

laidback

2011-02-08T23:27:00.001+08:00

Give me a motivation to run

Embrace

2011-02-08T01:13:00.002+08:00

All I want in life is to focus on 1 thing.

..
...
....

I am easily influenced.
I like to have things here and there.
Which should i do?
What is my passion?
What am i good at?
I am tired.
I need to embrace myself.

未来,现在,过去.

2011-01-21T22:34:00.001+08:00

未来以成了现在, 现在以成了过去.

等

2011-01-21T22:28:00.002+08:00

一日过一日
一夕又一夕
一年又一年
不知何时共嬋娟

-熊康诚

I am...

2011-01-18T23:08:00.003+08:00

Remembering having this at eun hang dong, extremely spicy noodle

Eating korean instant noodle, reminds me of korea.
Eating it back there at dormitory.

While eating...
Just asked myself some personal question.
Who am i?
Doesnt seem to give a detailed answer...
Lived for 19 years, still cant give myself.
Really feeling abit stupid. Shit.
Let me start one by one,
pening down one by one.

I am....
Someone who is unpredictable.
You never know what i am going to do next.
Because of my indecisive character.
I make last minute decisions very easily.
Good or bad? You rate it.

In the midst.

2011-01-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

In life, all i want is to be happy like a normal person.

I have not found the way yet.

Is that person a ? or .

2011-01-11T20:21:00.001+08:00

A good question.

A question mark or a full stop?

2 main goals in 2011

2011-01-10T22:12:00.004+08:00

I would like to start to move forward.

Going against the odds once again,
when almost everyone has given up.
I am bringing out the guts to set this.
I would be busy this year according to the following.
Dreams, goals and targets to hit this year.

According to my 3 principles this year,
Goal - Meaningful - Integrity

I got a dream that I would like to accomplish before i perish in this world. What i want the most in life is not my life or money. I want to top all the mountains in the world. I will work towards it from the age when i was 19.

(1st Priority)
1) Slim down and shape up – Healthy!
2) Launch of online business

(2nd Priority)
1) Braces
2) Driving Licence

(3rd Priority)
1) Scuba Diving Licence
2) Marathon Run

(4th Priority)
1) Visit korea at least once this year
2) Squash

Apart from working and applying to univerisities, this is the busy 2011 i am looking foward to and actually accomplishing it. I am doing it one by one. In order to motivate others, i have to be motivated first. My starting is to gain motivation first.

Whats life in 2011?

2011-01-08T18:00:00.001+08:00

"人生在世，究竟是性命重要，還是活得有目標，有意義，有尊嚴重要"?

Goal, Meaningful, Integrity.
2011 principles to follow.

Felt different

2011-01-08T17:50:00.002+08:00

The thought of those memories in korea,
the feeling is really strong,
a really special magical feeling.
Figuring that now back to singapore,
Its a new start,
no more fooling around.
No more dinners with topher and co.
No more lunch and catching toys with daniel.
Its all left back there.

Knowing that now life changes for me.
I am not going to school 9am or 10am anymore.
I am not bound to anything.
I choose what i want now.
A new year, a new start to 2011.

A story in korea.

2011-01-03T23:12:00.016+08:00

How this boy met the african dude, this would have to rewind back to the very 1st day when the little boy started his day out in korea. Trudged wearily with 2 luggages to the new exciting 'home' that the boy will be staying in for 4 months. Opened the door, found shoes lying around on the floor where there were not much space to open the door fully, furthermore on squeezing shoes around it. Went in, found out a big tall muscular guy sleeping at 12.30pm. Waked him up and the little boy introduced himself quickly while the guy went back to sleep back immediately afterwards. He had mini eyes, but really good shape that says, 'dont mess with me'. After a few hours, talked abit and asked if want to meet a black guy from africa and he describes, "hey, you wanna meet this black guy from africa? really black."The impression of black guys were that , they are really fierce. And that was the first impression daniel gave. He was topless, wearing a pair of jeans as always. Havent see him in any shorts before. These 2 were like buddies to the little boy. He felt home there, he felt he had a family.

The boy went on to make some acquaintances mainly from china and taiwan. He met two chinese girls in a church where he was forced to go as part of a compulsory session even though the church session is in korean. After which, they exchanged contact number and went on to go to zoo, themepark, safari and flowerland together. The boy even went to mountain climbing and even Jeju island with one of them. It was a good and sorry experience for him in Jeju island because of JimJilBang. He had some really good time there where he climbed the highest mountain in korea with 10kg of bag and 3 teddy bears hand carried throughout the 10 hours journey in a 1950m mountain. I guess he was the first to do that with 3 bears.

After which, topher introduced 2 taiwanese girls to the little boy, trying to upsell the boy to the girls, saying he is single here and there and everywhere. It didnt work out the way topher wanted but it did worked out on a friendship way where these 2 cheerful and cool girls were like the most steady people that the boy can rely and talk to.

Every story comes with a little bit of spice and herbs. This boy had on the last month of his stay. He met a lovely lady from ukraine. They have been classmates all along since the start of the semester, but nothing special until the last month. They actually started talking on the korean lunar day, chuseok when there was a rice cake making session. It was her 20th birthday too. They actually spent sometime together unknowingly. They went to seoraksan, and dined together, chatted during games unknowingly. There was 0% deliberation. It all started when the little boy was planning a trip to seoul and lovely lady wanted to join too. It didnt happened for the first time, but yet they went to seoul in the end too, with just 2 of them. A young man and a lovely lady was seen walking down the busy road of seoul, with shophouses around, as glitters of snows started falling down as the lady go closer to the young man while hugging his right hand, hand in hand. All these things was what the boy have been dreaming of all the while, to experience winter sonata with someone special. They went out together for sometime, catching 4D movie, Harry Potter and The Tourist and spent sometime watching movies on the net too. However, all these has to come to an end one day. When they bid farewell on the last night, one said, "there is no promise". That dies the flame. The boy is in a dilemma.

Anyway, he still have his comrades. Comrades will be comrades forever. 35 year old - 24 year old - 19 year old. Topher - Daniel - Alex

Despite, having a different opinion on korean guys, the little boy made a good pact with a korean guy named Young Kim. His character stood out, he was those that would put in effort for friends and people whom he care for and dont ask for returns. The boy was with him most of the times sitting side by side in the class. They scold each other bitch and even sat along the road and rate girls from a distance. A hobby that Young Kim normally do. When the boy are lost with the korean culture and words sometimes, the first person he would contact is Young Kim. They head out to the table tennis court often, almost everyday. A good friend indeed. If there is a ranking, other than the 2 comrades and the ukranian. Young stands 4th.

There are many things that in life we cant buy with money. Such experience was a great opportunity. An american, african, ukranian and korean. Being friends with them was something that no one can ever could have guess. I was glad that I was in korea, in daejeon, in hannam. I didnt learn much, but i experienced much.
Made the friends of my life.
Toured at Seoul on my own.
Toured at Jeju with 2 new friends.
Taking care of my expenses and welfare.
Decide on my own what i want to do.
6pm dinner everyday.
Climbed the highest mountains in korea.
Visited sex museum park.
Had my first snow experience when i was 19.

Everything is in the heart, too much to learn.

Thank you, topher. Will always miss you telling us how great the new games are, the TV dramas and of cos the dinners with topherisms :) I learnt a word from you, 'embrace'.

110 days in korea , thank you :)

2010-12-31T17:18:00.004+08:00

Different songs represents different phrases in korea.
It make it seems like the journey in korea alittle longer.
Misses those time, when i first settle down.
Trying to understand what is happening around.
Going into school and knowing the environment.
Going around campus to find out whats around.
Really good, thank you had a good time there.
Song: Letter that i couldnt deliver - DJ DOC.

I am back now, had fun in korea.
Last day of 2010.
Really feeling this year pass off pretty fast.
and a little slow at times.
up and down, like a roller coaster.
Really, many things happened in korea.
Once again, 3 pple i cant give up there.
I will remember all of you forever.

Cheers to new year.
though, not really in a mood.

I would like to wrap up 2010,
by saying thank you to the 3 people
who made 2010 a happy ending for me.
Moving on :)

Writing down my journey..

Swim Failed

Fail to plan, Plan to fail.

Maple Island Pics

2012, "21 this year"

Back on track!

Need to buck up!

Summin' Nov 2011 up!

我很想成为。。。

A new place after BMTC 2

分享的快乐

Once upon those childhood...

喜欢我们

"Harry Potter" - Asian Edition

One's Heart.

Happy Kid'O

Ups & Downs.

Surrealism

Dream, Episode 2

Dad, please be well.

Dream, Episode 1.

Out-of-Training

"Good Morning~"

Passed COMPASS test!

I need a plan.

Our love is cruising up!

相信爱就 有奇迹, 我们就是奇迹.

你我两颗心 慢慢的靠近 :)

You finally find you and I collide :)

WHY

Once in a while

子曰

Reality Check

Is it too late?

Promise

True

Held back

Strive

Comrades Forever

Today is 七夕情人节!

Search Network, Not good at saying goodbye

Pick A Part That's New

梦想

巧

Music is memories best revision

时间不够

天下真的很大

Part and Parcel

默契 :)

慢慢等 等红灯 变绿灯

Enlistment date

Why are we complaining?

The very last note

Dont be too naive

Slow ride

Handbags and Gladrags

Only that style workz!

Sick of tires

A fairytale

Stunned, need a new perception

Part and Parcel

3 Years Memories has finalised.

Everyone needs one

Good May

Someone who can't let go of memories

Maybe I'm dreaming

The Mid May Confession

We had once upon a time...

Keep me movin'!

Ready?

A Labour Day @ East Coast Park

Be contented.

SIngapore, Fishing Village

What are you born to do?

a 19 young chap doing what now?

100% Focus

Futuristic electric car

Dont pray, do something.

Naruwa~ Taiwan!

Homesick O' No

相信爱就有奇迹, 我们就是奇迹.

你我两颗心慢慢的靠近 :)

慢慢等等红灯变绿灯